Perks

On December 28th i was the happiest on the planet. There i was relaxing on my back and being adored by these three women. I was experiencing a deep sense of surrender as i watched their playfulness among themselves and my body. In the interaction the sexual energy would not flare up into a mind blowing ecstasy but the sweetness was palpable between us. Just by touching one person and another deriving a sense of pleasure by the fact we are accepting one another As Is makes me very happy. They were not sexually aroused but having fun as they would take turn and come on top. “Oh, it’s too big. I can’t get in”. Laughs! I looked at my Beloved lying down at arm’s length in love, gratitude and I offer her my pleasure, adventure and notice the undercurrent of emotions running below my mental radar. “I need your emotional support; I appreciate you being here with me; Thank you for creating this scene; my cock is hard because of you”. I run those affirmations in my mind as we eye gaze. Meanwhile one woman performs a move that her body translates to me: “I want you to posses me”; the other One: “Meet me at the desire level I am bringing in”; the other One: “Oh, it is sweet and i enjoy giving to this guy”. A strong need for assurance or grounding settles in as i plan to enjoy this playfulness but I want to reassure my Beloved I am with her so I joke at a certain point. Oh Gosh, it is difficult to predict how such a scene like this will develop but I let them know: “I am shy and i don’t come in public”. Laughs! “We will see to that!”

The one on top is so lightweight and mignon. She pushes my cock inside and it hurts. “Where is the fucking lube”, “Why can’t i prepare myself with towel, lube, bigger condom, trimmed nails to the quick, shaved upward face, sex toys and further, deeper communication between me and my Beloved”. I kiss my Beloved and ever so quietly whisper “Thank You”. “I will go downstairs”. “Ok”. She barely moves and an insight out pops: “Stay with me because i might feel abandoned” “You are not enough!” “You are going to hurt her” “She will be upset by not knowing what happened while she was away”. Bunch of triggers like waves wash through and my body and I cool off some and i fall back into a waiting and watching. I stay sort of hyper-vigilant till she lies back close to me once again and whispers, “I found you a Kimono”. It is a very thin condom and her message was: “You are welcome to ejaculate. I look deep into her eyes gazing and screaming through “I LOVE YOU”. I know she is up to compersion so i close my eyes and let go.

They perceive there is a shift. “Thank you, Ladies, for the playfulness but i want to give myself to the highest stimulation possibly. I am now wearing a Kimono that ever so gently cocoons it in. It is thin and i am sensitive to the touch now and I am ready to come”. D is nervous and literally struggling to get me in. She makes a comment and receives couching but no lube. Eyes gazing to my Beloved “I will come” and relax my pelvic floor, breathe and set my legs apart. They read my body posture and turn on the heat. I abandon myself more and more; let my body responds as it may till the little, mignon Thing scratches all her long nails on my belly. I am in a timeline and I say: “My father used to scratch his beard on my belly”. She gets it: “Oooh”, “Sweet!” They play team to raise my excitement and i go places through time and space. I talk to myself inside my head: “Please do receive. It is your turn”. So, thank You, God. And i say a silent, short prayer: “In Divine Love, Divine Grace, Divine Truth, Divine Light” and in gratitude I let go screaming and grabbing my Beloved in a deep felt dive into her chest and arms.