{"id":254,"date":"2016-03-19T12:36:37","date_gmt":"2016-03-19T18:06:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/?page_id=254"},"modified":"2016-04-03T15:27:02","modified_gmt":"2016-04-03T20:57:02","slug":"shifts","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/?page_id=254","title":{"rendered":"Shifts"},"content":{"rendered":"<audio class=\"wp-audio-shortcode\" id=\"audio-254-1\" preload=\"none\" style=\"width: 100%;\" controls=\"controls\"><source type=\"audio\/mpeg\" src=\"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/T-2016.04.03.m4a?_=1\" \/><a href=\"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/T-2016.04.03.m4a\">http:\/\/bibylove.net\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/03\/T-2016.04.03.m4a<\/a><\/audio>\n<p>Shifts<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\">2016.March<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI am feeling a need to be nurtured by a man and would like to know where you are in relation to this so I create some movement\u201d, I said.<\/p>\n<p>My heart was racing as I said those measured words. There was still a gap in the air as I dared to explore further. \u201cI would like to contact B and see if he could work out with his wife for us to get together\u201d, I said. I was still in 3D, my heart was just racing instead of jumping out of my chest and mostly important, I was not dissociating. When the internal pressure goes up I somehow take off and it is a tremendous effort to stay present instead of being hijacked by triggers. As I racing through this internal turmoil I was astounded to her reactions. \u201cWhy don\u2019t you get on the phone and figure this out?\u201d and she continued: \u201cLast time we were together you guys did not have sex\u201d.<\/p>\n<p>I ponder on how to continue this writing as I think we sucked on each other, rimming and tried to get in. Second, I am well aware I am taking baby steps towards my so dear freedom and the fact I can talk, name what I want and dare to bring up my internal life exposing the emotions running undertone I consider the whole interaction a win. I might, once again, not act on it as I realize I have just given this guy time to make the move because he is a little bit less than half my age.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Shifts 2016.March \u201cI am feeling a need to be nurtured by a man and would like to know where you are in relation to this so I create some movement\u201d, I said. My heart was racing as I said those measured words. There was still a gap in the air as I dared to explore &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/?page_id=254\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-254","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/254","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=254"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/254\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":260,"href":"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/254\/revisions\/260"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/bibylove.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=254"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}